Seems like lately it has been hard to sleep. I suppose it could be because of my mind trying to wrap itself around LIFE. My world is spinning faster than I can keep up with. Sometimes I wish I could be like Superman and just turn back time or at least slow things down. I remember when I was a kid, I couldn't wait to "grow up"... now I just want to be a kid again... but wait... Do I? NO! I love my life, as chaotic as it may be sometimes, I am TRULY BLESSED! I have so much to be thankful for. I try to remind myself of my blessings when I begin to grumble or feel sorry for myself. How have I been blessed? Let me count the ways :)
1.) I surrendered my life to Christ when I was 19 and rededicated my life in 2004. My God has been there as my ROCK and my Foundation. He has helped me to weather the storm, this storm called life. You know, there is a saying I love to hear: "Don't tell God how big your storms are, tell the storm how big your God is!" It is so very true. With God, all things are possible.
2.) I am married to a wonderful man and have been now for almost 11 years. Although we have had our share of "trials" (like any perfect couple has), ultimately we work together as one pretty well tuned instrument! During my personal trials with school, Brandon lifted me up. While I have been recently under a cloud of confusion, he has been the light to shine through. You know, I just read something interesting: It takes 40 muscles in your face to frown, but only 17 to smile... so why not smile? Brandon brings out that smile in me. I am truly blessed to have someone who completes me.
3.) Family - Wow, I could write and write on this one!!!!!!!!! I have so much to be thankful for. My mom who has wisdom and knowledge and always looking out for someones health and finding more natural ways to heal, her passion to succeed in school, and her push to get me into school! David (my stepdad) who is talented with wordworking and makes some really AWESOME Chili. My Nanny who has always been my Angel! She is the shoulder I need when I need her, she is always making me smile and she gives an amazing back rub... I think she should have been a massage therapist!!! My Sister who helped lead me to Christ! She is so sweet and always has such a meek and mild, yet BOLD and PROMISING way of putting things. Crazy how she can take a lemon and make lemonade. Although my younger sister, she is still someone that I look up to for so many things. My Mother and Father-In-laws David + Jane AND Debbie + Tom.... WOW I am blessed. I thought I had a big family, but then I got married!
4.) Yes, still an extension of family, but one deserving of it's own paragraph. I have 3 WONDERFUL, BEAUTIFUL, SPECIAL, AMAZING Nephews!!! Steven (Brandon's Brother) and Liz first had Luke Dominick Strobl on 06/26/05 which they allowed Brandon and I to be a part of the amazing delivery process. What a miracle! Then their next child is Grayson Carl Strobl which was then born on 08/01/07. Absolutely adorable boys... you know when they say you could just "eat 'em up"... they are THAT cute! Oh, but it doesn't stop there! Danielle (Brandon's Step-sister) had a little boy Dallas Ryan Story on 01/03/06. There is something awesome and amazing about Dallas.... he was born at 28 weeks (I think that was the #). He had several ups and downs while he was in the NICU at a hospital in Ft Worth. He did however, get to come home and bless us with his wonderfulness! He is what we call our "miracle baby". Some may not beleive in miracles, but I beleive he is! Dallas has cerebal palsy I beleive as a result of a brain bleed (I might be wrong). Well, PT's say he may never walk without braces... but if you could see the determination in this little guy and see how he climbs the walls, you would say differently. God isn't done with him yet, so I don't beleive it when others say he CAN'T do something! He has proved them wrong so far!!!
5.) My church family. I have so many people in now an even larger family... my brothers and sisters in Christ. Brandon and I were unable to have children of our own, so God helped to fill that void by leading us to teach a class on Sunday nights called "Bible Buddies". We have been truly blessed.
I know I could probably write for HOURS AND HOURS about all my blessings. That is why my "problems" and trials... well, they are nothing compared to all the good stuff! God tells us in the book of James that we will face trials in our lives and we must consider them pure joy because they are there to strengthen us! I beleive it.
Thank you for being such a blessing in my life.